As the year comes to a close I look back at all her events,
all the good times and the bad times we had. I try to remember them all, but
some are fading into memories, some taste like sour grape, some hurts like a
new blade and some feels like yesterday.
It’s been 365 days of great experiences and today I wonder
what I have learnt, what is the lesson to take to next year with me. To what
relevance have these days hold, if it has not left freckles of wisdom, regrets
and few success stories along her gory paths.
The greatest thing I have learnt from this year is that God
is ever faithful and his mercy cannot be overstretched to any limit. He loves
me and that is the end of the story. This has been my worst year in
relationship with God. I only go to him when I need something and I am quick to
varnish as soon as he gives me. I had no relationship, I committed worse and
worse sins again and I soon forget his place in my life and no longer acknowledge
him in any of my ways. I was lost and I knew it, I went so astray till I could
no longer find my way. As this year draw its curtains I wonder if he had
considered to pull the plug from me, close the blinds and shut my little eyes
into a great sleep and everlasting slumber. Let me alone in the hands of he that
patiently seek to take me or leave me wondering through life. Several times I feel
alone, not confidence of his grace and mercy. But the more I sway, the more he
reaches out further to grab me. If I will do something different next year, is
to allow him take over, to give him my all and to worry before his feet, to
tell him my secret and to let him show me the mysteries of his unfading love.
Another thing I have come to learn is that most men seek
only their own and very little seek after you, walking with men is a rigorous
and tiring journey and make no mistake any man can leave you to wroth.
You closet companion is your family, your father, your
mother and your siblings; they are bound by blood to you and are always the
last to turn their back on you.
The love of a woman is a love for the moment and so quickly
it can fade, so quickly yet it can come alive, trust in all things but be slow
to trust in it, it looks the best, but believe me it is not. Treat your partner
well and hope she treats you well too. Always give Good and never give evil.
Wisdom is all that wealth is and the extent you know and
apply is the extent you draw and command wealth, above all the wisdom of God is
supreme and when a diligent man finds it. There is no limit to what he can be.
Closing this note, I apologies for the year, for my flaws
and my shortcoming and my weaknesses. I hope to be a better me next year. But
next year is just another day break and I am what I am except for the decisions
I make. If I manage to do better than this year, it is not I , but the grace of
God available to me. All I pray for the next year is more grace to strive to
become a better me, more grace to lay hold of his vision for me and run it.
More grace to leave right with my creator. As Apostle Paul will say that this
is one thing that I do. I forget those things that are before me and I lay hold
of the things that are ahead of me I press towards the mark, for the prize of
the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. This is Engr. brain Officially signing
off from 2013…
